blah blah blah...

its 235pm and i am trying to focus on tracing the code and checking their javadocs..

there seems to be a pattern on all of these codes..but its getting routinary and boring...and yet, its taking up a lot of time translating the japanese comments to english...

its already february 9 and i think we've been here that long..well, i guess we really does...but still, its going to be 16 more days before we could finally go back to cebu...that is if we will not be extended...after the meeting a three weeks ago, and a discussion two weeks ago, we havent heard from them at all...lloyd said that they have been busy with the SI1 an SI2 testing at YRP for 05B..

no statement of work, no clear deliverables, no meetings, no progress at all...and i believe that we have been here for the turn over...it seems that the BT was of no use...we are not able to communicate with them coz they themselves are so super busy...

nyways, im trying to have a break ryt now...trying to wake myself up...i think everyday here has been a struggle....a struggle to wake up early in the morning...a struggle to catch up the train..a struggle not to get squeezed inside the train..(ironically, also a struggle to squeeze myself inside to get on the train and not wait for the next one coz actually, same scenario will be happening...it is all packed still...)...a struggle to chew and like these foods, which i cannot understand or speak their names or even know what is in it...a struggle to understand and interact with all these people...a struggle to stay awake all day(i wonder why i always feel sleepy here)...a struggle to wait for 9 or 10 pm to come so we can go home...and a struggle to wait for our trip to end here..

don't get me wrong...i am not saying that i dont like this trip..i am a person who loves to travel...we are glad to be in this trip together as a group, experience winter and snow, a not so hectic schedule that we can still go home by 7pm, no ot on saturdays and all, go to different attractions here and even be able to go shop and buy stuffs here...

its just that, maybe i dont like things that i do not have control of or when we cannot actually demand from them to make it clear to us what we are actually doing here and what deliverable they are expecting from us...
m just ranting here...nonsense stuffs...

but despite with all of these, i am actually begginning to appreciate this place...except i think with their overworkaholic attitudes...this place is nice, well-disciplined people, expensive yet i think, is just right for the compensation they are also giving to their people...which leads me to thinking on "what-if?"

no, maybe not now...not now when i still have a bond...not now when i still have a reason to stay...

ahahaha....and it all boils down to one person... =p

wished he is reading these too...coz all the while i am here or wherever or whatever i am actually doing, i would still be reminded or would still be thinking of him...

this is useless...this is nothing...this is just a result of my restlessness and sleepiness..but hey, all i have written are true ;)